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Nov 07 2015

Sub-Space with Rebecca E Blanton

In short, subspace is a special place bottoms go when receiving pain.

And now, Rebecca E Blanton, author of Love Letters to a Unicorn is going to give us a longer definition with more information on the not-so-magical state that is subspace.

What Everyone Needs to Know About Sub-Space

When I was an undergrad, I took a course on altered states of consciousness. The professor who taught it was in his last year of teaching and had reached the “fuck it” stage of his career. He would begin each lecture talking about how “people” or “the subject” experienced an altered state. However, at some point in the lecture, would slip into first person. It became a game with me and other students to bet on how long into a lecture would it take him to shift to first person.

What was great about this, is hearing him talk about being high on marijuana or LSD or cocaine or peyote or meditation or whatever(I got the feeling he tried every drug he could get his hands on) lent to a deeper understanding of how different things really altered someone’s state of consciousness.

I start with this here, because in the kink community, we mention sub space a lot. Most people know that they are not supposed to negotiate in sub space and that people will need aftercare in part because of this concept.

What a lot of people don’t know and may be unaware of, is the actual experience of being in sub space. I know this because even in groups of subs, we can have a hard time describing sub space to someone who has not experienced it. It can be hard to convey the power of this altered state.

Sub Space is an Altered State of Consciousness

Sub space, like being high on pot or really drunk, changes your capacity to process information and make decisions. Its not like having a couple of beers or a couple of tokes for a functional stoner. Its power is closer to knocking back eight shots of Fireball or like me (a completely non-functional pot smoker) taking a few hits and forgetting I have legs.

Sub space is powerful and can eliminate or cloud certain brain functions. Like all my writing, I offer this from personal experience with the caveat that everyone is an individual and will experience things somewhat differently.

Pain

Sub space changes your physical experience. Like being really drunk, sub space alters concepts of pain. If you have been really drunk and fallen down, at the time you may not feel much pain. When you are sober the next day, you go to get out of bed and collapse in pain on a sprained ankle that is twice its normal size. You don’t remember it being that bad when you fell.

For friends who can see my pics, I have the pic of my ass half way through a scene where the skin has been split and I am bleeding (I am super proud of that pic, btw). At the time, I had no idea I had been hit hard enough to split skin. I remember the strike. There was a good amount of force behind it, but it didn’t buckle my knees or anything. I was actually shocked to find out afterward that I was bleeding. I knew I would be bruised for a few days, but never to the extent that I was.

That beat, like a few others that have left significant marks which last for at least a week, did not feel as intense as other beats where I am not in sub space. For me, there is a point during a scene where my brain clicks over into sub space and much of the pain disappears. Instead, I get ridiculously aroused. It will make partners laugh because I go from being wet to resembling the swamps of DC in August.

This can make sub space dangerous. If I were to play with someone unaware of this shift and unconcerned about physical harm, I could both withstand and have very positive reactions to things that could cause long-term damage. For D-types and tops, you need to be aware of what you are doing. Your bottom or sub may not be able to give accurate feedback on the physical sensations.

Needs

For me, when I enter sub space, the concept of my own needs is eliminated. My ONLY desire is to serve. If I am in sub space, asking, “Do you want to continue?” is a nonsensical question. I literally don’t have the capacity to figure out the answer. Likewise, “Have you had enough?” makes no sense to me.

Asking “Can you continue?” is a logical question. I can evaluate certain things – can I still support my own weight, are limbs numb from being tied, am I having problems breathing – can help me figure out if I can keep going. Questions need to shift to things that I can base a decision on pretty simple physical feedback. Asking a question about desire will get the reply, “Whatever you wish, Sir.”

Additionally, sub space can last a while after a scene. To be on the safe side, I need a full day before I can negotiate other parts of the relationship. My ability to figure out what I need emotionally, physically and psychologically is compromised in sub space.

What Is It About Sub Space That Eliminates Needs

For me, sub space is the only point I feel that I am deeply loved and am highly valuable to someone. Other than my ex-wife, I haven’t inspired love in someone. I know I don’t have the capacity to be someone’s priority. Knowing this, I have pretty strict boundaries with partners.

Day-to-day, I am pretty good about things like determining if I can lend someone a few bucks, if I can pick someone up, if I can do what someone is requesting. This is filtered through my realistic understanding of what role I play in someone’s life.

If you have had the joy of being someone’s primary, you know you will do a lot more on all levels for that person than someone you are just a FWB to. In sub space, those lines get blurred for me. I am much more amenable to doing things and committing to things that I never would in my regular consciousness. Asking me for something when I am in sub space is the equivalent of asking your really drunk friend to pick up the bar tab for the entire bar. They may feel expansive and happy and max out a credit card, but the next day, they know that was a bad decision. Sub space is the same way.

Consciousness of Sub Space

The hard thing with sub space is that it can be tricky to know you are in it. I can be in a scene, really enjoying myself, talking, and replying, and all that, and not recognize I have slipped into sub space. I try to be aware of it, but it is not something with a hard demarcation of sub space/not sub space.

For me, sub space is hard to reach in the first place. It has only ever happened with D-types whom I have a tremendous amount of respect for, who I have a core belief that I am not their equal, who I care for and who use the right combination of protocol, discipline and pain during a scene. When I get to a point in our play where I start reaching sub space, I let them know. That way, they can be aware of it and try to monitor things as well.

D-types in all interactions need to try and monitor for sub space. If your partner starts tolerating pain more easily, if they start using your honorific without effort when they normally will miss one or two, if they agree to everything you ask, they may be in sub space.

Conclusion

You all know the caveat of not to negotiate in sub space. Hopefully this clarifies a bit why it can be so dangerous to ask a sub to do things or agree to commitments in this altered state. Part of being an ethical kinkster is to respect boundaries. Sub space can eliminate boundaries that are there for a reason. It is never okay to renegotiate something with someone in this space.

However, as a sub, I have to say I love sub space. It is really powerful and I feel amazing for days afterward.

Rebecca is A_Vice on FetLife. You can find this writing here on Fet or here on her blog, Love Letters to a Unicorn.

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